Well, the green grape got a better browner stem…

Myself, I am stuck a little now…

My next move is going to be to plant some artificial grass in the gaps of the bear sculpture…I’m hoping it will work…Green grass sprouting from the ears & feet & tail  of the creature…

I’m stuck because, well, I have dropped back into sculpture, but I am not sure where I am going with it…

I liked the concrete ferrocement type technique, but it is a bit unhealthy for the lungs & sometimes I wonder if outdoor sculpture in concrete ends up competing with garden ornaments…I’d probably need a much larger studio if I was going to continue in ferrocement…

The armatures in steel with the nylon rope woven on top, well, I like them as an idea, they are very original, but where am I going with them? Is my destiny wall sculptures?

My main problem is that my husband is stymying my process…He does this alot…Forces me to rethink what I am doing & do it better or different or cheaper…I mean it is good for me that he puts obstacles in my way, it makes me work harder, but sometimes I just want or need things to be easy…Joseph is all about process, taking the long way home, How you do things, doing things right…

It is very hard for an impulsive to slow down in this manner…

I was going to do a giant wall flower sculpture in white…I did the preliminary sketch  From there, I was going to create a rod armature then weave each petal in white rope…But Joseph, says no it will be too heavy for a wall sculpture…Waah…I am stuck again…

Maybe I will just get to doing the grass planting into the marble sculpture, let that resolve & with clear mind consider my path…

It sure would help if maybe I sold those two paintings in the solo show…Not that I need the money but the positive reinforcement might give Joseph some energy to give me some more love into his advice…I feed on love…You love something I did, I can work for weeks on that energy…On the other hand, one badly put remark can put my work into a funk…

Where am I going? Is it possible that there is an end to being an artist? I feel that I have done it…I have had the success I was looking for…I have achieved high skill in art…I can do many things, well…I have broken down stereotypes, I have created new ways of doing things, I have shown in fancy galleries, I have paid my dues…Where does one go from here?

I had the same problem with acting…I started as a child actress, moved on through classes & courses & degrees, did several shows & was well received, & then moved into directing, & was good, then I was sort of done…I got bored…That was when I got the promotion into visual art…I moved into visual art & it has kept me going for years & years…But I feel the pull again…I have done this…I have done this well…What more can I do in this field? I have succeeded & maybe it is time to move on again…What is the next incarnation after visual artist?

I’m going to look at others who have transformed from visual art into the next level…Let’s see if that is me…Several have gone into filmmaking…Hmmm…I have done filmmaking…

Maybe my next step will be to prototype my designs, something that can be more mass produced?